This is a text about trying to deal with past mistakes and becoming a better person. In summary, it's a text about becoming empathetic, understanding, assuming positive intention, standing your ground but still being gentle, being forgiving. Communicating as well and understanding that we all hurt each other in human relations, so we need accountability.

I've been blamed for mistakes all my life, big and small. A while ago I would swallow my own mistakes and believe I was Literally Hitler. Every time I pissed someone off, I would think I was a bad person. Everything I tried to be turned out bad. But then, lately, I started to learn with my mistakes but also to understand that there's shared responsibility most of the times when things go wrong. Sometimes we make mistakes because of miscommunication - a two-way street. Sometimes we make mistakes because we lacked rapport about empathy. Sometimes we forget about putting ourselves in someone else's shoes. And sometimes we get mad and we forget about being gentle.

I understand that apologies might not be enough. That's why I always bring the question of accountability: showing you are sorry with actions, with changing bad behaviour, becoming a better person at every interaction.

Of course, we may never forget that, when you are neurodivergent, it's often easy to make mistakes. It's also often easy to blame neurodivergence itself. So it's important to understand when you were an asshole or when people are just not dealing with the fact that your brain is wired differently.

I feel happier nowadays because sometimes people get mad at me, I cry, I get all sensitive, but I try to stand my ground and understand I'm not a bad person, I'm only human, I make mistakes. And there's been a few instances where the other person recognized they failed at something, whether communication or assuming positive intention, and they themselves try to also become a better person. That's why standing your ground gently is important: I don't want to fight, I don't want to be "always right" nor perfect. I want fix my mistakes, I want to help you deal with how I hurt you, I want to bring accountability. I will say "I made a mistake" countless times. I will emphasize what I need to do in order to not repeat those mistakes.

You will definitely see I will try my best.